Sunday, July 24, 2011
sobs sobs :'(
i juz dun understand myself..
idk wat shld i do n wats right for me..
he has been soo soo special n great to me..
he had done everything for me.. everything like even the most impossible thing
he had strive damn hard for me n nvr did give up
haix all i wanted was him to stop and for
only myself to be happy with haffis..
n not even thinking abthes feeling..
ive hurt him alot like damn alot bt he still try to put up that
smile for me and still takes care of me..
haix idk.. after that tuesday wen haffis me and ray
sat dwn n talk.. things were all gone..
haix.. idk this is wat i waant bt
i juz dun understand why im feeling sad and always worried for him
ive never forget all the memories we had..
n ive nvr stop caring for him..
how cn i be soo mean n so heartless..
like wat hes sister said..
haix..
idk sometimes i feel like im doing the right thing for my relationship with haffis
bt its juz too hurtful to hurt him..
u noe.. i really cn see frm hes eyes that hes suffering badly..
haix bt after that day i think he
kinda give up and let me go..
thats y now hes abit happier than before..
haix this is wat i want
so this is wat i get..
im juz confuse with myself..
why am i feeling sad that hes finnaly letting me go..
i juz feel that im not worth to strive for anymore..
n i juz dun mean anything more to him
truthfully.. this is the first time that im really crying for him
haix..
it juz hurt me..
it hurts me alot....
im sorry :( :'(
