Saturday, May 28, 2011
ps: thanks mira for everything!
as in everything..
thank god i found u and the capoeirista..
i really treasure and appreciate everything that uve done for me..
i really feel sooo greatful..
thanks again...
i think i finnally gonna be happy..
wen im with u guys..
ure the best,..
thans for being the awesome and greatest fren ive ever had..
thanks :)
i noe i cant be like this..
i noe im full of emoing and keeping quiet
i really wish im always happy go lucky and not emo..
i dun want to be emo..
i really dun want to.. bt its always me..
always me who is being this way..
god please show me the way..
please guide me through all this im really confuse hmm..
help me please..
ill try my best to b happy an ok..
i really dun want to be sad..
eventhough it hurts me so badly inside..
:(
i must be ok..
hmm i have to
hey
i just though that ive loose you
forever.. never gonna be able to c u smile and laugh again
hmm ytd u ask me to meet u..
i was kinda scared n lost n sad..
buden i force myself to meet u coz im really worried abt u
and i really wanna c u..
so i came..
we meet up at the usual place we used to go..
when i came.. w/o even salam me
u instantly grab me tight n hug me..
u cried endlessly and sadly..
i can really c that ure really in pain and suffering because of me
ouch i juz feel hurt and sad ..
u ask me why i leave..
u ask me what u did wrong till i leave u like this..
:(:(
argh!!
i really dunno wat to tell u hmm
i really dun wan to leave u n hurt u..
im gg crazy thinking abt u too i reallyy miss you..
bt how cn i juz leave haffis juzz for you..
i really love haffis eventhough we dun meet and he dosent show me hes love..
bt still i cannt leave him..
putting me inside hes shoes i really cant.
and truthfully my heart is still with him
eventhough hw much i wanna be you bt i really cant..
i hv to choose haffis..
i have to.. i got no choice..
i really dun care if im happy or nt..
i noe ill be truly hurt n suffer bt i hv to..
its juz i have to
im sorry..
im giving it a second thought bt
please i dun want u to hope for me
and i really dun want to hurt u no more..
hurting u is like killing myself..
please i really dun wan to do this..
:(
sumone please hear me out n help me..
im stuck again.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
i have to be strong
i have to show that im ok
even if its killing me deeply
n im suffering..
i have to..
i have to be strong n be happy even if im not
bt its juz hard
:(
the more ill try to be happy ill eventually be more
sad n depress..
y mus all this happen to me..
im depress someone please help me
argh!! :(
i miss you...
im sorry i hd to choose.. n
sorry i didnt chose u..
as much as i want it i cant..'
i really dunno why bt cnt :(
it hit me damn hard too
harder longer than u..
hmm coz its been hitting n bothering me since u ask the qn..'
u noe i care n i really dun want to loose you
haix bt u lead me to no choice..
truthfully im really hurt n suffer due to my own decision
i really miss you n i really
dun want to loose u ..
i cried seeing u sad n in pain..
i really cant bear seeing u this way..
im really sorry bt i really miss you
i noe we cant be the same like last time
bt my heart is being smash into pieces too..
im really hurt right now
i dunno what to do.. i miss you
someone please rescue me please..
:(:(
i hate this
argh!!!!!
