"i don`t know which hurts more; saying something and wishing you hadn`t or saying nothing

im fine bt im really missing u..

2011-12-09T12:13:00.003+08:00

hey...

hmm well this post is actually specially for u..

idk if it does mean anything to you or nt

or do u even still read my blog..?

hmm u noe who u are..

hmm well i juz wanna say that i have nvr hate u..

n i will never will...

well i noe u noe me to well.. n yea i wanna say im

sorry coz i didnt mean to avoid u n im nt..

well for this few days i juz needs more time on my own..

u did nothing wrong to me and i still lurp u..

its juz that i do really miss you truthfully..

:* hurm well its ntg to do with u n him.. dont worry

im really happy for u guys and last forever ok..

i juz feel like ive lost my only best friend?

hmm u says that ure nt gonna do anything abt it?

hmm well its up to u then coz now

i noe where i stand in ur life..

im sry i juz miss you!

thats long?

2011-10-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

wow... it has really2 been long since ive last updated huh..

ok well alot of things happen uh actually bt.. hmm

idk hw im suppose to say this..

hmm ok.. now idk whos with me ..

i juz hate myself? hmm n u noe sometimes it really

hurts me to feel this way.. u noe..

mybe this is all that i deserve...

i hate my life.. nt fully bt this part is killing me..

idk if im suppose to share it here or nt..

hmm ill try my best to smile.. n act ntg..

truthfully i feel like shit..

i juz feel alone! :/ i hate being me.. ..

why must all this happens..

and as for u.. u noe.. im juz asking ur opinions b4 i take action..

bt wats all this? i noe u dun like it n i noe mybe im nt suppose to do it..

bt why must u say that?

truthfully i feel like giving up..

i dun wanna burden anyone with my prob bt

prob please go away... i hate being this way...

please :'(

please dont look back

2011-09-14T12:48:00.003+08:00

hi bloggy..

ok hurm.. wat cn i say today lol..

ive seen that uve been fine now..

yes we're still nt talking to each other..

but.. i guess ure happy now..

hmm idk ... i noe ure still not over me..

bt ive been dreaming about u..

idk why bt i think im missing u..

missing those times we had..

oh crap i hv to stop this .. fine!

wat makes me so diff frm any other gurl..

u treat almost all of them the same..

u let everyone hug u.. ride ur bike..

wat ??im juz the same like one of them wat.. why isit sooo hard?

haix i admit that i really miss you but..

i wont wanna let anything happen again..

im sick of getting hurt..

actually since uve move on..

please dun loo back at me.. n rmb our past

coz i noe ill nvr b over it but..if u do look back..

it make me more hurt of the feelings that is coming back..

ray im sorry..

as for haffis yea.

im happy with u.. bt please trust me.. n dun control me..

u noe actually sometimes i juz feel like letting go of everything..

and be happy.. bt i cant afford to loose you..

my heart is for u..

but the fact is ure still hurting me....

never ending

2011-09-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes...

it juz get me to think n look back at wat ive done..

all the the things ive been through and

every complication and problems im having..

why must it always be me? and

why my lifes is full of miseriez..

yes im happy for now..

bt it juz wont last..

it gets me thinking,...

why do i always get the kind of guy which is always controlling me?

bt thinking again.. im lucky at the same time

coz if he does contrl me means he does love me

n he wont wanna loose me..

bt u noe... i guess everything is too much for me to handle myself..

im juz too weak.. i need someone that really2

understands me n be there for me..

at the same time i would never wanna burden others with my problems

therfore resulting me to not share n keep to myself

which is equals to me dying inside..

oh god.. please help me .

guide me through everything n give me the strenght to face all this

why must i always me th bad person :(

suddently i miss you..

at the same time im wishing that we've nvr met.

therfore all this wld nvr had happen..

im sorry :'(

thanks syg

2011-08-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

alhamdulillah..

im better now...

thanks syg for giving me this last chance..

u noe i would never want to loose you..

u really mean alot to me..

thanks for accepting me for who i am

and never stop loving me..

my eye are swollen due to crying ..

but thanks for bringing back my smile and

reason to live in my life..

as for you..

im sorry but its over..

u nearly break my relationship up..

n juz make me die.. sufferring in sadness..

my life is totally over if that happen..

n if really that were to happen..

im really sorry bt idk if i can accept u anymore..

my life is over because of u..

n is that wat u want? are u happy to see me suffering..

please.. for now ..

im sorry bt i dun wanna have anything to do with you..

i juz wanna let it go..

im sorry.. yes i dun hate you but..

this is the end..

idk hw im suppose to face u.. but.. i dun think we're be the same again..

:'(

my life is over

this is wat happen

2011-08-14T12:47:00.003+08:00

im breaking down

:'(

i miss the times like hw we were last time.. :(

im willing to do anything for you..

ure my future.. ure my life..

bt why must this happen..

ure really gg away .. arent u?

ure leaving arent u..

im really2 sorry abt everything i mean everything..

idk wat im suppose to do now..

bt i juz feel like giving up everything..

if i really cant take it.

if i really cant stay strong..

im sorry idk

it wld juz be the normal liyana anymore...

the strong n happy girl will juz b vanish frm me

im sorry

why hurt urself?

2011-08-07T01:41:00.005+08:00

hey again..
btw this is a post that ray wrote
Hello Facebook World, This Would Be My Very FIRST Post After 2 Years Being A Member. But Im Doin This For A Reason. So Today, On The 7th Of August 2011, 12a.m., Im Dedicating This To ( My Full Name ). Does This Even Mean Anything To You? I Hope So... :)

urgh..... y are u putting this up for me??
i mean really.. juz why..
u are making me feel so so bad n sad..
i mean.. u noe urself that we cnt be tgther n we cant be close like b4..
but why are u hurting urself by puting this up for me..
ray..... hurm
im already hurt by the situatio we're in now..
please dun hurt me more :(
what are u trying to do...?
kill me? :(

back then

2011-08-01T18:16:00.002+08:00

hey...

its been awhile since ive updated!

good news ! my cast is finally off!! yay!!

but the bad news is that i cnt do any sports for like 3 months!!

3 MONTHS!!!

:( thats so so so long haix i wanna train!!

u see!! mira!! u cn train earlier than me :(:( i wanna train with u..

ok obviously i gt to noe that u guys noes abt my blog nw

didnt expect it actually bt i dun mind though..

pardon me coz of all the emo stuff i post!

bt i promise ill always b happy ok on the outside!

:D:D

hurm ok

ill juz act as if u guys dunno ok if not ill stop writing emo post liao hehe

but do tell me if u gt any comment or things to say to me ok..

im actually still feel sad though coz of the situation now..

hurm i juz wish things could be as for normal n nothing terrible

like this ever happen..

back then everything was so happy and perfect..'

but now its juz all destroyed..

nothings left! i cnt go near him he cant go near me!

having this feeling is so irritating :/ why must it be this way..

we were so so much better if we juz remains as frens..

idk why but u noe ive always been hoping to see u..

like everywhere i go.. ill find u . eventhough we cnt talk n its weird between us

i juz hurm i juz miss you :(

but i noe i cant! i wanted it to be this way!

no turning back!! liyana!! no turning back!!

it is juz so hard wen our hearts and mind dun think alike..

my hearts still cnt let go n still hoping n want it

but my minds says that i cnt n i hv to stop this! :/:/

well i hope this feelings would stop coz its bringing me down..

pulling me n killing me slowly n that juz hurt!

i wish things could be normal n happy like it always hv been

back then...

why u let go?

2011-07-24T18:42:00.003+08:00

wheres all u hopes...

wheres all the courage n always striving for me..

where is the guy which is always trying to b in my heart..

always goes the extra miles and do everything for me..

wheres the guy who will never stop loving n caring for me...

where is he..

he has juz let me go never there anymore..

im sorry but idk why..

i juz felt empty.. worthless..

n idk why tears keep falling off my cheeks coz of this..

i noe i wanted this..

haix bt i cnt believe that u actually stop everything this way..

idk i noe ure strong n uve been hurt alot coz of me..

all this while ive been hurt too

ive been suffering too bt i guess its juz my destiny..

ill always be suffering to live..

haix.. i juz feel hpeless n sad that u finally

juz let go of me without even trying ur best again..

u juz stop? why?

i noe its the best for you n for me..

im sorry bt it juz hurts me

:"(

why am i feeling this way?

2011-07-24T17:44:00.002+08:00

sobs sobs :'(

i juz dun understand myself..

idk wat shld i do n wats right for me..

he has been soo soo special n great to me..

he had done everything for me.. everything like even the most impossible thing

he had strive damn hard for me n nvr did give up

haix all i wanted was him to stop and for

only myself to be happy with haffis..

n not even thinking abthes feeling..

ive hurt him alot like damn alot bt he still try to put up that

smile for me and still takes care of me..

haix idk.. after that tuesday wen haffis me and ray

sat dwn n talk.. things were all gone..

haix.. idk this is wat i waant bt

i juz dun understand why im feeling sad and always worried for him

ive never forget all the memories we had..

n ive nvr stop caring for him..

how cn i be soo mean n so heartless..

like wat hes sister said..

haix..

idk sometimes i feel like im doing the right thing for my relationship with haffis

bt its juz too hurtful to hurt him..

u noe.. i really cn see frm hes eyes that hes suffering badly..

haix bt after that day i think he

kinda give up and let me go..

thats y now hes abit happier than before..

haix this is wat i want

so this is wat i get..

im juz confuse with myself..

why am i feeling sad that hes finnaly letting me go..

i juz feel that im not worth to strive for anymore..

n i juz dun mean anything more to him

truthfully.. this is the first time that im really crying for him

haix..

it juz hurt me..

it hurts me alot....

im sorry :( :'(

2011-07-19T02:14:00.002+08:00

PLEASE STOP DOING THIS TO ME!!!!!

ARGH!!

let me go...

someone plz start caring?

2011-07-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

all ive ever wanted was for YOU to understand me
noe me n understand me throughly...
nver restrict me from watever i wanted
n understand me knowing wat ill do
never scold me bt guide me through..
never stop trusting me and
always b by my side...
i need u bt ure always werent there..
haix.. idk.. im sorry..

1 question..
am i even mature now..?
n wen will i ever be mature..

mybe im thinking this way coz
im still thinking like a kid..
im suffering n trying to sacrifice wat ive ever wanted..
its all coz im juz doing it..
no purpose n i never think..
will i ever be mature..?
im sick of this..
y must it always be me that is in the wrong..
:/

stuck with a cast! :/

2011-07-11T22:53:00.003+08:00

i still juz dun understand myself
hurm im still not sure of my self..
i thought its all over n hv ended
bt i think wrong..
idk
im tired of everything
n i eventually give up haix..
oh ya...
on the 7th july thursday during training..
i was doing ahmada vuadora
then i landed wrongly n eventually
twisted my knee n i couldnt walk..
now my leg is on cast..
stupid me.. i feel so useless being this way n i hate this...
haix.. i cant perform i cant meet my frens..
wats this..
and
HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO CATCH UP WITH MY
STUDIES!!!
ill b totally lost n this sucks!!
:'(
oh ya i was given an MC for like 1 month!!!
1MONTH!!!!
thats freaking long!!
longest MC ever!!
argh!!

why?

2011-06-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

why must all this happen to me..
why must life be so complicated to me..
i really wish i can vanish..
i juz feel like dying..

im juz too hurt.. too depress..

i guess tis is my punishment for being so evil to him..
i swear i never hv wanted to hurt u at all
never... :'( u juz kept quiet n trying to avoid me..

what cn i do when u said nt to forcee u anymore..
must i really let u go..
i berserah.. i tahu i salah..
i juz hate myself

ps: i want to be remembered as a girl who always smile n be
the one who can always brighten up ur day,
even if me myself couldn't brighten my own life.

ill die for you..

2011-06-24T14:33:00.002+08:00

i may be smiling all the times.. ill ty my best to smile..
bt deep inside truthfully..

im totally hurt. im suffering..
mybe someone like juz dun deserve to have happiness and
i juz dun deserve to be loved..
im juz not worth anything .. it is juz nt worth being arnd me
ill juz make others suffer n sad because of me..
i really2 wish i cn disappear..
theres no point of me living anymore..

no point at all... now its all gone..
ive lost everything..
i really mean everything..
i juz cnt find the reason why im suppose to smile n be happy aagain..
im totally destroyed.. broke down.. i hancur..
:'( i really find that theres no point for me to live anymore..
well ill never wanna get myself stuck in love ever again..
ill nvr forget u.. ill nvr recover ..
ill nvr be the same again.. :'(
please forgive me.. i juz gave up my heart and soul..
mybe its juz better for me to juz die..
:'(
sometimes ppl juz deserve a second chance..
u noe hw much it will meant to the person..
if this is wat u want..
eventhough it will hurt me ,ill follow wat u wish..
if u wanna end this.. i will..
this is all for u syg..
everything for you.. i dun wanna force u to love me anymore..
ill nvr wan to force u again to accept me back..
im juz too tired of being hurt..
all my tears juz mean ntg anymore.. i juz feel sick..
if this is wat u want..
ill SAY goodbye to my one true love..
il nvr be happy again..
if this is really wat u want n demi kebahagiaan ayg..
;( :'( goodbye

screwed

2011-06-23T14:57:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy.. hurm
again im in a mess..
i really wanna disappear now..
mybe this would bring happiness to everyone..
im juz a burden
im not needed..
haix idk i just wanna give up everything..
mybe byy doing so i cn stop everything..
my problems wont be as complicated as this..
bt wat will i be if i were to give up..
i have gone so far to juz stop now..
frm wat my fren said..
the night is always dark before dawn..
things would juz seems worse wen it cn become good..
bt why is everything so worse to me...
it has never been good..
life.. please be good to me for once..
is that juz so hard to ask for..
im scared.. im sad.. i juz feel like giving up!

im screwed! what have i done!!! :'( :'(

capoeira

2011-06-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

please give me a chnce to change.

i noe im wrong n i have never suppose to do anything like that..

im really sorry..

but please trust me..

i promise i wont ever do it again..

i promise please give me a chance to prove it..

i wld never wanna leave capoeira.. it has been my life

please dun stop me frm doing wat i love.

please dun separate me frm the only true friends i hv

the ones who has always been there for me..

'the ones who care n i love..

they have never failed to make me happy..

please i dun wanna go

:( i really hope u cn let me go there again

with ur sincere heart..

relakn i pergi..

:'( :'(

2011-06-08T14:20:00.002+08:00

i keep too much to myself and its getting to me.
im gg to explode if no one starts to care soon.
:(

i juz wish i could juz vanish n dissappear in ur life..
mybe that wld make u happy.
:/

again! :(

2011-06-08T13:57:00.002+08:00

this is just worse!
hmm i really dunno where im heading to in my life
im juz completely lost..
lost in every way..
please all i need from you is space..
stop following n controlling wateva im doing..
stop telling me wat to do..
stop scolding me...
ure juz making me weaker..
weaker in every way..
i dun want to hurt u..
bt in the direction that we're gg u'll hurt urself..
more than ever..
u have pulled me away from all my friends that has always been there for me
by not even letting me spending time
abit at all with them.. ure juz so demanding..
ull never listen to me..
i wanna stop this..
ive had enough.. bt how?
i really dunno hw to say it to u..
im just stress n lost n sad!
:(

im sorry ive lied to u..
im sorry i hv to break our promises..
im sorry i hv to break ur heart..
im juz not strong to live with it anymore..

2011-05-28T11:56:00.002+08:00

ps: thanks mira for everything!

as in everything..

thank god i found u and the capoeirista..

i really treasure and appreciate everything that uve done for me..

i really feel sooo greatful..

thanks again...

i think i finnally gonna be happy..

wen im with u guys..

ure the best,..

thans for being the awesome and greatest fren ive ever had..

thanks :)

what shld i do

2011-05-28T11:00:00.002+08:00

i noe i cant be like this..

i noe im full of emoing and keeping quiet

i really wish im always happy go lucky and not emo..

i dun want to be emo..

i really dun want to.. bt its always me..

always me who is being this way..

god please show me the way..

please guide me through all this im really confuse hmm..

help me please..

ill try my best to b happy an ok..

i really dun want to be sad..

eventhough it hurts me so badly inside..

i must be ok..

hmm i have to

i really dun want to hurt u no more

2011-05-28T10:21:00.003+08:00

hey

i just though that ive loose you

forever.. never gonna be able to c u smile and laugh again

hmm ytd u ask me to meet u..

i was kinda scared n lost n sad..

buden i force myself to meet u coz im really worried abt u

and i really wanna c u..

so i came..

we meet up at the usual place we used to go..

when i came.. w/o even salam me

u instantly grab me tight n hug me..

u cried endlessly and sadly..

i can really c that ure really in pain and suffering because of me

ouch i juz feel hurt and sad ..

u ask me why i leave..

u ask me what u did wrong till i leave u like this..

:(:(

argh!!

i really dunno wat to tell u hmm

i really dun wan to leave u n hurt u..

im gg crazy thinking abt u too i reallyy miss you..

bt how cn i juz leave haffis juzz for you..

i really love haffis eventhough we dun meet and he dosent show me hes love..

bt still i cannt leave him..

putting me inside hes shoes i really cant.

and truthfully my heart is still with him

eventhough hw much i wanna be you bt i really cant..

i hv to choose haffis..

i have to.. i got no choice..

i really dun care if im happy or nt..

i noe ill be truly hurt n suffer bt i hv to..

its juz i have to

im sorry..

im giving it a second thought bt

please i dun want u to hope for me

and i really dun want to hurt u no more..

hurting u is like killing myself..

please i really dun wan to do this..

sumone please hear me out n help me..

im stuck again.

the pain is killing me!!

2011-05-25T01:22:00.002+08:00

i have to be strong

i have to show that im ok

even if its killing me deeply

n im suffering..

i have to..

i have to be strong n be happy even if im not

bt its juz hard

the more ill try to be happy ill eventually be more

sad n depress..

y mus all this happen to me..

im depress someone please help me

argh!! :(

all the moments in my life juz turn to be only memories now :(

2011-05-25T00:56:00.003+08:00

i miss you...

im sorry i hd to choose.. n

sorry i didnt chose u..

as much as i want it i cant..'

i really dunno why bt cnt :(

it hit me damn hard too

harder longer than u..

hmm coz its been hitting n bothering me since u ask the qn..'

u noe i care n i really dun want to loose you

haix bt u lead me to no choice..

truthfully im really hurt n suffer due to my own decision

i really miss you n i really

dun want to loose u ..

i cried seeing u sad n in pain..

i really cant bear seeing u this way..

im really sorry bt i really miss you

i noe we cant be the same like last time

bt my heart is being smash into pieces too..

im really hurt right now

i dunno what to do.. i miss you

someone please rescue me please..

:(:(

i hate this

argh!!!!!

bie

2010-12-22T12:30:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy haix

lol juz wanna let some thing out..

***

*** asl u mcm gini..?

i really miss the old you..

the person who really care and be there for me..?

am i asking that much... i noe we can't be more than friends

but isit wrong for me to be ur close frens...?

i juz feel awkward and weird now..

hmm u said tat u do not want to msg or contact me no more..

if thats the case ca u please tell me the reasons why..

i just dont wanna keep feeling sad and suffer wen i dont noe whats im suffering for...

you had really made my soul uneasy and pain...

i think thats wat u wan rite..

i really miss you... :(

but if its juz not worth for me to feel the pain and suffer for u

please tell me...

i just need reasons...

im sorry..

do i sounds so desperate?

haix heck care bt i really like and care for you..

hmm i juz need the reasons for

why u change so suddently..

why hmph :(

i miss you..

2010-11-23T11:44:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy

heheh yea ntg new lol

hmm juz confuse wit myself lol

dunno uh

heheheheh

:):)

ill update again soon uh..

hmm dunno wat to say uh

hmm

;)

2010-11-22T10:37:00.002+08:00

wearing a stupid hat! :)

bt its cute lol :)

2010-11-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy hmm sorry fer the lack of post
hmph been bz with sch werk lately! :(
hmm yea been a few downs fer me haix..
hmm haix im having few problems with my fren haix
nvm i think im always used to it..
it happens like everywhere i go haix
hmmm nvm if me being alone further frm the grp will
make u guys happy then ill go hmph !
:( hmm
n wen me being stuck there i juz feel weird and awkward haix
that wld make me more suffer inside.
hmm
yea skip hmm abt capoiera..
ive accomplish my misssion lol
im nt concentrating in au semao n raiz
lol cool cool hehe yea..
1 thing i feelpissed of..
why must u be so sengaje to find fault wit me..
if ive done wrong ..
tell me
dun make me feel as if im so stupid cn??
argh irritating like hell seyy!! n tat makes u hate u
haix bt yea i guess im fine now hmm
coz of tat awkward meeting wit u tat tyme hmm yea
we're fine now i guess..
n yea i guess its really wrong fer me to say tat
now i kinda miss u
im trying to resist my best to contact u or do anything
tat might show tat i like u..
hmph liyana stop liyana!!
haix i really cant move on wit thiz hais
sorry
hmm ill end ill update soon k :)

2010-10-26T11:18:00.003+08:00

hey look at my group bungalow project

lol :):) hmm it ok uh nt soo bad bt

yea i think i screw up..

skip

next im juz confuse :(

haix wats wrong that ive done..

how come u soo stress and bad mood..

why are u mad at me wen i dun event noe wats my fault....

why??

can i please know.. you said u dun like ***

ok i understand bt why isit wrong if

im juz fine wit hym as in im nt too angry at hym..

why..?? am i wrong..

im juz confuse...

happy birthday syg!! 25th

2010-10-18T09:54:00.005+08:00

happy birthday syg!
n hope u like the present i gave u
i noe its nt so nice n tk senonoh sgt..
as in
not neat lol bt sorry heheh
thanks for spending the whole day wit me
i hope ive succeed to make u happy..
lol hmm okae thiz is late bt yea
i think its still valid lol kay
ill update soon ok
bye!
:)

2010-10-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn wats happening :(:(

my laptop lost all my files :(

means all my picture and all my stuff are gone :(

haix damn all those picx..

where are they gone hmph...

argh!! those picx really mean alot to me hmph..

btw hmm im soo sorry..R**

sorry :( i really didnt mean wat i say really

ok ok..

im kinda sad and miss the old u..

i kinda feel tat all i do is

wrong to u and yea haix..

u tend to b angry easily im soo sorry..

i guess i must understand u better..

hmph i miss the old R**

hmph i noe i mean ntg to u..

but deep inside me

hmmph i cant deny..

only allah noes hmm

bt wat cn i do yea im trying to forget u..

hmph..

sorry i really miss u

hmph..

im nt trying to change im sorry

im nt perfect

2010-10-08T12:48:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey bloggy!!!!

lol sorry heheh

well guess wat!!

i passss!!!!!!!! lol

yea i noe ive gotten bad result and my

GPA is quite bad but...

at least i pass and manage to be promoted lol

okae werk??

nt werking much anymore.

capoiera??

hmm kinda streess due to the performance which is cumin soon

haix.. nd to be prepared and ready fer everything!!

hehe i kinda get my macaco back :)

yaay!!!!!! heheh bt nt too straight uh bt

its okae hehehe

alhamdullilah..

n yea i wanna try to force myself and body to do things lol

like trying to stay on and persevere and

not give up even if i feel too

and even my body is weak

i have to be strong back

i hate to be weak..

n im trying to keep myself strong!!

lol i must be stong...

if u still can breathe means u still can fight and carry on...

give it ur best for every single shot! :)

heheh :) tc den ill update again soon heheh

:) bye

2010-10-01T01:47:00.003+08:00

hey!!
hmm well guess wat my hari raya is nt like 1 at all
i didnt even get to go out
haix nvm no point stressing and frustrated abt it
i still cant change anything rite ..
n its gonna jolly well end like really really SOON!!
hmmm well i kinda sound stress abit rite..
well im sorry..
my holiday??
still nothing... bt yea enjoying my days nt having to have to study!!
bt still must come for capoiera..
damn i freaking easy to loose my skills n moves huh..
irritating :(
the batizado is cumin soon and the performance...
god plz make me improve and do better..
well
^^nk cium saper tu? ^^
wat does tat suppose to mean huh?
hmm am i suppose to b happy or sad or angry abt it..
u said tat im always the 1 who's causing all these troubles
and arguement and wats thiz..
hmm well ill try to understand and be okae kay..
its okae i noe :( wateva it is..
hmm ill try my best to juz put on a smile kay

dun werry abt me..
i think ill try my best to be fine without u..

sry if my post is quite emo sorry :(

slamat ari raye!!

2010-09-17T04:24:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello

heheh im sorry for not updating hee

well now heheh im kinda making myself sleeep

lol its gg to be 5 am soon n im still wide awake

llol hahah

hmm well now it hari raya!!!!!! n my exams are all over!!!

yay!! hahah but hmmmm hahah

i think i still need to catch up.

for capoiera hmm

there will be performance on 22 october..

kinda try to perfect my moves hmm

mistakes everywhere

lol hahah sooo sorry..

hmm n my macaco sucks!!

damn tats the only thing tat im good at

and i end up scewing it up..

im so sorry u guys for having a high expectations on me sorry..

hahah :)

well hmm my life now since to okae uh..

cant say tat im totally fine

bt ya..

cn uh hahah theres still ups and downs..

stress everywhere..

pretending someone im not

hmm ya tats abt it hmm my brother met wit and accident and broke some of he's

leg bones ya hmm kinda scary bt..

well im ok now..

trying to put on a happy face everywhere hee

yea hahah tats abt it

im sorry bt ill update soon :)

2010-08-04T13:33:00.002+08:00

how i wish i could be a baby again ...

live my life through..

feel belong to the world and dunnd to think much

no responsibility...

hmmm

cn i juz stay being a kid....

and dunnd to grow up..

hmm too bad im 18 now...

juz need to live through my life..

hmm trying to adapt to thiz world..

trying to think and act as an adult..

for once... can i juz feel belong..

not afraid to be myself...

hmm

argh!!! i juz wanna be happy and feel belong..

is tat soo difficult..?

........

wats wrong wit me...

2010-08-03T15:32:00.002+08:00

argh!!!!!!!!

im damn tired seyyyy

internet technology juz dun make any sense!!

y mus the lecturer talk all the way

wen noone even listening to hym...

den scold us..

wth..:(

im soo tired...

hmmm well my project are mostly done..

hmm i hope ill pass all hmm

isit wrong to do the project alone?

when its actually in a group when sum1 dun really care

hmmm!!!!!!!!

i hate all thiz!!!!!!

hmm why must All thiz happen to me??

me??

noone else??

hmmm btw wish me luck fer my presentation

hahha i was like damn nervous till i tremble all the way seyy

hahhah :)

hmm hope ill do well ahhaha

kae skip

ill update soon..

haix..

i may be quiet at tymes bt

tat dosent mean tat i dun have any feelings

u cant juz do watever u like!!

happy birthday liyana!!

2010-07-06T11:44:00.003+08:00

heloo!!!!!!!!!

hehehe say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D:D

hehehe well wanna thx all of u guys who had celebrated and

wish me on my birthday..

awwww

hahahaha i really really appreciate it hahah

:D:D

thanks :D

really hahaha

hmmm well

I'M LEGAL!!

ahhaha bt.....

wats the point of being legal wen i didnt do any thing

which require my age to do so

hahah aww :D

well my result kinda bad hahah

bt hahah nt so uh hmm dun mention it hee

well i gtg nw buhbye ppl :D

thank you sooooooo much!!!!!

:D:D

.............................................................................................................................................................

Parabens pro voce

nesta data querida

muitas felicidades

muitos anos de vida

hoje e dia de festa

cantam as nossas almas

para o/a menino/a_____

uma salva de palmas

2010-06-01T10:37:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAT HAPPEN TO MY HAIR!!!!

haix...

i look so ... soo....

=.=

I HATE MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=.=

2010-05-24T12:21:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey!!!

hahaha hmmp okae...

well im kinda like in a mess right now

hmmm guess wat ive lost my ic again!!!

walao!!

my posb, ic , ez link , admin card..

oooo shit!!!

im dead!!

i hope i cn retrieve it bck soon

hmmp pls help me..

sorry syafiq

2010-05-17T08:55:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey!!

hmmmp..

argh!!!

hhhaah juz wanna say sry for everything..

i noe im wrng

im sooo sooo sorry..

plz dun hate me...

i noe u cant read tiz bt...

plz hmmmp give me a chance to explain...

please im soo sorry...

do talk to me :(

i really didnt mean to get u involve in thiz hmmp

im so so sorry....:(

;( ;(

liyana to syafiq

im really really sorry

haix...

2010-05-14T17:11:00.003+08:00

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't anyone juz understand me!!!!!!!!!!

hmmmmm iritating sey...

i juz feel like giving up!!!!!!!!

no use....

it will only make me in pain!!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!

stress sey!!

:( ;(

jingga!!

2010-05-14T16:36:00.003+08:00

hey pp.!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha well i dunno wat to say uh....

my back ache like hell sey..

i cn't even relax myself

n 1 thing...

ahahaha plz dun pick up on me hahah

pick up sum1 ur own size larr

hahaha cmon

continue..

heee jingga!!

hahaah :D

i really had a gr8 tyme uh although my

body is like

argh!!

hahaha klah i better go nw buhbye

heee

SPA!!!

2010-05-11T12:44:00.004+08:00

hey again

hahahah

im tired ,...

bored

hahaha my head juz cant't get anything running

ahahha

omg!!!

wats happening hmmp

:( :(

these are picx frm SPA!!

NUBIKA!!! OI!!

hahah

thx guys for making thiz camp fun n happy for me

i really love it!!

haha

bck frm adventure camp!!!

2010-05-10T08:28:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey!!!!!!!!

hahaha i juz came bck from adventure camp!!

hahah gd to be bck hm..

hmmm well wanna wish all mothers happy mothers day haha

hmm sry though for thiz late wish

ahhaha hmm well

the camp is kinda fun though

hahah i really had a great tyme

heee thx tooooo..

NUBICA!!!!!

hahahaah well i kinda miss thoses tymes

hahaha hmm

klah thiz are the picx of my grp..

hahah hmm tc ppl

i gtg nw hahaha

2010-05-05T10:37:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy

hehehe

hmm okae..

well im bored..

hmmp i juz dnno wat to do uh..

hahaha nw im in class

hahaha guess wat..

i still dun get watever my lecturer saying

hahaha waste of tyme..

bt i really wanna learn hahah

hmmp

:( hmm

well im kinda confuse wit life hhahaa

hmm bt its ok..

i hope i get over it..

hahaha

yea :P

baby!!!!

2010-04-28T11:44:00.001+08:00

cute rite hahahaha

welcome to the world

Nurwirna

hahahah hmm

okae well i cnt talk much heee

sry for nt updating hahaha

plz forgive me hahaha

tc ppl hmm i gtg oready hee

gd bye hee

sry..

2010-04-22T10:09:00.004+08:00

hey again heee

hmm sry

its kinda hard for my to acess internet lorr

to upload n update hahha

siannn

hmm my internet at hm spoilt hmm

nw i cnt even use my lappy at hm

hmmm

btw here u go kakak ani

hmm the picx u wanted

hmm bt still hv more larr

hmm do check on my blog slalu ye

hmm n tag hor..

hmm sry for all the delay heee

klah i gtg nw hmm

study!!! :P

bye

liyana:)

bored..

2010-04-20T13:16:00.005+08:00

hey!!!

im bored..

im tired..

im soooooooooo tired of waiting hmm

im soo nt into my course

i dun even understand a single

THING!!!

hmmp :P

btw here you go kakak ani

hmm theres more bt ill

past it ltr on k hehehe

sry lmbt...

tired

2010-03-25T13:27:00.001+08:00

yoyoyoyo!!!!!

heeez well i'm bck agn hmm

nw i'm still stuck at werk uh

hmm i'm tired haix

my troat hurt

n i think i'm gonna b sick hmmp

sry for thiz silly post

hmm

i cn't talk much

sooooooooooooooo

do tc k

cya

hmm :)

2010-03-22T13:12:00.002+08:00

hey guys...

i'm here again...

heeez tats so unexpected rite hmm

okae well now i'm still at werk uh

hmm ntg to do hahaha

gt things bt dun wanna do

hmm okae well i juz wanna drop by

n update hmm

well i'm really gonna miss

all my frens sey hmmmp

bt i'm gonna make new frens

hmm kinda feel awkward uh

n weird hmm

coz i dun even noe anyone

:-(

i gtg nw sry

buhbye

i'm bck hmmp for today :)

2010-03-18T13:33:00.003+08:00

heyy ppl!!!!!!

heeez well i'm really2 sry for the lack of updates...

hmmm hahah

so so so sry

hmm okae nw i'm currently werking at courts for weekday

plus at mcd on weekend

haix i feel so tired sey heee

hmm btw abt my o level results..

i pass hehehe

n i'm posted to

SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC!!

haix well all my frens nt in the same sch wit me sey

hmmp ;[ so sad hmm

hmm well tats all for today hehehe

do tc okae

be happy owaez

liyana

sorry3 + slamat hari raya!!!

2009-09-18T02:18:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sooooooooo sorry fer the lack of updates

yeah now is my exam period!!

prelim leii!!

haix i hope i'll score well hmm

sorry hor..

fer the tyme being..

i dn think i'll be updating uh..

hmm so ya

pardon me plzzzz

:) btw gd luck everyone!!!

for ur prelims!!

SLAMAT HARI RAYA

AIDILFITRI MAAF,ZAHIR DAN BATIN!!!!!

hmm i would like to say tat i'm really

sorry of wat bad things i've done to u guys or wat..maybe

i might hurt ur feelings,scolded or being mad at

u guys i'm sorry okae..

+ forgive if i might tend to be moody at tymes....

i'm soo sorry..

2009-06-30T21:00:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY!!! HERE I COME!!!!!

lol sry fer nt updating heheeh..

hmm juz the same old me

ntg diff heee

juz that i really can't wait till tiz

SATURDAY!!!

wakakaka

tc ppl..

2009-05-26T18:32:00.008+08:00

hey bloggy!!!

i'm back.. heheeheh lol i'm so sorry 4 the lack of updates

heeez well firstly i wanna say

CONGRATULATION!!!

to suriah fer getting the 7th place in the bintang remaja!!!

u really had made fajar proud..

You sure had made me proud adk!!!

heeez well secondly.. i wanna wish finah

Happy Belated birthday!!

i hope all yr wish will come true atite..

hmm i really mss my finah

hee well Happy Belated Mothers day mom!!

heez well the picture above was mean to be on mothers day

lol heez sry fer the late post

well my MYE ssucks like hell

haix i'm really2 getting worse n my malay 'O' level is

nxt monday argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

haix wat am i suppose to do.. hmm

frm A2 i came down to c5...

hw bad is tat n my eng i gt E8 sey!!

hmmp!! i hope i'll buck up :)

okae well the shirt above was designed by me!! hmmp

well i'm so sry u guys if its nt so nice n beautiful as u guys might imagine

well i'm sry to dissapoit u guys okae hee

well LIA has gone bck to indonesia!! hmm

well i mish her jokes mann lol

do tc okeh over there n dun ferget me!!

hee

klah i gtg now bye2 tc...

*_*

buck up liyana!!!

2009-04-20T20:21:00.007+08:00

hey bloggy heeee

well i'm truly sry fer the lack of updates heee

hmmm its nt tat i dun hv tyme hahah bt coz my laptop is always used by my brother

heee so i dun bother to disturb him lor

well lately i've through a very though life hee

well u noe wat my dad's bike had been stolen tat day haix

n my brother had been into an

accident these days heee

well tat really nd tyme toclear all up

haix well there new rule though added to my family

haix rules3.. theres not much freedom though for me haix...

sometimes i rather feels kinda lonely nstressed up buden

i get myself really hard to cheer up.. hmm

no point of me being sad if noone cares right

so ya i rather nt waste my tyme getting myself hurt fer ntg

haix hmm CHiNG!! hehe

u noe watt i juz realised tat my english is bad argh!!!

n my mly oral is like suck~!!

hmmp omg!!! liyana u better buck up sey

i really dun wan to be lost further ..

i also became much n much lazier each day!!!

i didn't do my homework..

nvr pay attentions in class..

didn't bother to get myself to study..

n ALL!!!

wat the fcuk* am i getting myself into???

haix klah i better go now tc

ppl i'll update if theres a tyme okae

:Pbyebye thx

2009-04-02T18:13:00.007+08:00

heyheyheyhey!!!!!

well sry fer the lack of updates heee really.... heee didn't mean it heee.... i was nearly dwn wit a fever uh hahah but hmm thank god it didn't happen heee... every single day i'll have a headache haix sumtimes a bad 1 hAix... haha hmm okae well skip hmm cross country hd juz past hahah n my NAFA test heheh yeah its oni my 5 stations to go.. dun need to run wit my very best anymore hahaha truthfully i'm really2 dissapointed of hw i turn up this time heee .. well my stamina really2 go dwn n i can't run tat fast anymore.. hmm wat does thiz mean? hmm am i nt gd anymore haix... well i came in 9th place in the cross country.. haix truthfully i'm nt satisfied bt..all of this wld nt happen without the help of my friend!!, WAN QING!!! thank you... really i appreciate it alot wan qing.. i really wanna stop running halfway bt u hd made me run all the way... wit all ur help i manage to win a medal heez thank you fer all the encouragement that u gave me heee n the times tat ure here fer me.. heeeeheee thanks!! n fer the NAFA test we did today.. yeah haahha we really did well hee i'm so proud of u wan qing heeee.. okae well my timing was 14 min 26 seconds well its nt so bad uh.. bt i really2 dissapoint myself at some sort haix bt its okae haha i really cn faired better its all bcoz of my stamina that r getting worse that cause all thiz haix ... bt its okae hee hmm wan qing!! u really cn run well..i'm actually amaze of u heee u cn even run better than me heee jia you!!! hee hmm okae skip abt everything hmm i wanna start studying nw bt like i juz can't get myself to concentrate sey... sumtimes i juz keeps all my prob inside n wen its too much i juz become stress up haix.. bt i dunno uh sometime i'm juz confuse of myself n i dun even think tat i noe myself either haha klah i better go nw heee bye bye bye tc ppl sry fer the lack of updates yea... i'm really sorry hee tc ppl ciowz!!

sry fer the boring post!! hee n do pardon my english yea :P

liyana >_<

2009-03-21T01:39:00.005+08:00

frustrated!!

irritated!!!

haix tats wat i'm feeling nw..

i juz can't get the hang of wats gg on

hmm i just feel like nobody juz trust me!!

wat hv i've done wrong

why must tat inciden tat hd happen long ago result such behavior..

sometime i juz dn feel belong wit my family n frens

haix i juz dunno y uh

but my dad's behavior really2 irritates me haix..

i noe its his responsibility over his daughter

but please give me some space..

i juz don get any freedom anymore..

y? i'm like being controlled over haix..

can't do thiz can't do tat..

the best thing is tat every single things tat i do

its all wrong in his eyes..

haix y must it be this way?

even though i'm sure i've done it correctly

its always wrong to him..

juz nw i've been extend fer werk uh until 1am

so ya after werk i quickly go bck hm.

shockingly my dad is still up at this hour..

n like duh

i kena scold fer like every single thing

dun they even understand tat i've just finish werk

i'm like damn tired oready my body is

like aching but still cn't they even belive me

wat ?

do i look like a LIAR!! to u all?

i've hate lying n really

i dun like to hurt anybodys heart..

wat is the scolding fer??

fer my own gd..

hmm maybe buden its nt neccessary...

wat ?

am i tat bad to u?

every thing i do its all wrong..

am i like a stupid n useless person to u??

hmmp

i'm juz irritated uh haix..

btw ppl sry fer thiz quite emo post..

hmmm

i really dunno who am i suppose to let out to...

well i'm really gr8 to hv a mum heee

hmm klah i gtg now bye2

2009-03-07T12:17:00.004+08:00

hey bloggy..

well i'm sry fer the lack of updates haha

well its kinda hard fr me to get hold of tiz laptop

hahh as its in my brother's rm n nt mine..

hee well i juz bought a keyboard lol

hmm i wanna learn hw to play piano...

hahaha cn sumbody teach me hahah

hmm okae well my ca1 results aare out

n its all worsehaix.. nxt fri will be my PTC

hmm well nt everyone will be selcted to attend the PTC

haix bt unfortunately i hv to attend it

well guess wat i'm the only gal tat hd to attend haix..

i'm i tat bad till that i'm the only gal chosen

hmm i dun think its abt my behavior bt i think its all

abt my result that hs been very slack haix..

omg,.. i really hope tat my dad won't be able to attend lol

ahaha so i only nd to bring my mum hee

if my dad noes abt my results haix.. i think i'm gonna

be killed mann haha lol heee

hmm well actually until nw i juz still

cn't get my mind to study n concentrate

haix laziness always struck on me haix..

hmm i hope i will be able

to pass my O level very well n nt having tiz kind of

worse result haix

klah i better go nw hee tc ppl

sum updates abt my life..'

well i think its okae uh its juz tat i've lost my freedom n

i juz donno wat to do lol haix

its okae i'll juz hv to find a way to live wit it heee

klah byebye ppl

2009-03-01T01:10:00.004+08:00

hey bloggy .. hmm agn sry fer the laack of update haix..

my results 4 ca1 hd been released oni left wit the eng n mly haix my result kinda disapointing sey hahah well i failed my chem n geog haix.. well i'm really glad tat theres no ss 4 the ca1 sey hahah or else i'll be dead lol coz i noe ntg abt ss hahah i'm totally lost sey on tat subject hahah... hmm bt overall fer my combined sci i pass lah hahah hmmmm n my mathematics haix.. it bring me dwn to A2 sey ahah i wan A1 hahah hmm i mean maths is the oni subject i'm gd in haha so i set a higher standard n expectation fer my math hahah hmm well i scored really2 low fer my geog haix... i juz dunno why uh either i'm soo dump or so stupid.. haix i juz didn't get it.. i wrote a totALLY long answer fer all the qn haix bt i oni manage to get a single digit fer my geog.. haix didn't tiz juz say tat i'm juz loosing n wasting my tyme on answering while i cn oni get a single digit fer my geog haix... i hd totally disapoint myself haix.. i juz cn't understand why isit so sudden that my grades all drp haix... hmm juz look at the bright side.... its oni CA1 so i'll juz take it as to know whr i'm standing nw.. hmmm i haope i'll really improve myself b4 the 'O' level starts haix,... btw i juz cm bck frm werk today hahah hmm actually i dunnd to werk uh today bt i requested to lol bcoz i juz cn't find any better reasons fer me to stay at hmmm while everyone's gonna leave me all alone hmmm i juz hate being alone haix!!! hmm klah i gtg nw sry byebye..

2009-02-22T14:18:00.003+08:00

isn't she juz adorable?

lol hmm okae well tmr starts my

ca1 lol hmm haven't start study yet sey haix.

hahaha my hw seem to be like alot till

i cnnt finish like that lol

hahah many sey i still gt 10 pprs of POA!! to

do hmmp hahah if incliding nxt week..

15 pprs of POA sey haix

nt including other subject hmmp

juz hope i cn catch up juz on time lol hahah memoriez all the points

lol hahah

btw i've stop werking oready lol

hahah nt totally stop uh juz werk 1 dar per week

haha hmm well it really2 feels different nt having me

to werk as fer normal

haix lol

bt its okae hahah i juz have bear wit it till my

O level exams lol

hahah hmmm stating 'O' level examination in

june hmmm so i better buck up frm nw sey hahah

hmm klah i better go nw hmmp

hahah tc ppl btw

sry fer the lack of updates haha

juz cn't find the rite time toupdate

hahah n wen theres the time

i juz cn't find my laptop lol

haha klah bye bye...

2009-02-10T18:58:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy

sorry fer the lack of updates

lol hmm okae

well my life is quite the same ntg

different hmm

i think thiz yr will b the same like 'last yr' 4 me haix

:( hmm ntg gonna change

hmm cn c from the past few weeks i'm in sch

hmmp well wat to do

i can't force ppl to like me or be wit me rite

i'm like a zero compared to the others

hmm well i juz dn think my life cn b better haix

:( okae skip hahah hmm well been bz wit werk n sch

lol wth!!!

why is liyana still werking wen she noes that she taking her 'O; level exams tiz yr?

don't she even noe wats shes doin?

well 'O' level will nt be the same like 'N' level..

its gonna be even harder hmmp

well i wanna stop werking uh buden i juz

dun hv the time 2 tell them

almost everyone been asking me to quit

i noe uh wen to quit ..

don make as in i'm like sooo damn stupid cn?

haix hmm i juz dunno uh wat to do wit my life haix...

all i cn do is juz smile

n covers all my secrets deep dwn inside my heart hmmp

thats wen i love you

2008-12-29T04:22:00.002+08:00

Never say I LOVE YOU

If you dont really care...

Never talk about Feelings

If they aren't really there. . .

Never hold my hand,

If you gonna break my heart

Never say you going to..

.IF YOU DON'T PLAN TO START

Never look into my eyes...

if all you do is LIE

NEVER SAY HI....

IF YOU REALLY MEAN goodbye

If you really mean forever

THAN SAY YOU WILL TRY

Never say forever

CUZ FOREVERmakes me

CRY

THE MORE I LEARN..

THE MORE I LOVE..

THE MORE MY HEART CAN'T GET ENOUGH..

THATS WHEN I LOVE YOU

WHEN I LOVE YOU

NO MATTER WAT......

i juz can't sleep argh!!!

2008-12-29T03:48:00.012+08:00

time check.. : 4.04am

well heee

i'm still wide awake at tiz tyme lol hahah

hmm okae kinda been bz werking

earning money haha

hmm well my lifes still continues with the ups n dwns

lol but its okae i'll try to do wateva it takes

to manage it lol

hmm sch gonna start soon

awwww its like so fast sey haha

hmm well speaking of sch

hmmm i haven't even bought my school books

omg!! n btw i didn't get to apply fer financial assistance

haix wat sey hahah

hmm okeh i haven't bought many things sey

hahah my mind is still on the holiday mood

n sch is like getting nearer n nearer

haix hmm 1st day of sch is on 2nd jan

hmm well i kinda miss my sch frens like alot

lol hmm haven't been much tyme spend wit them

haix.. i really2 sorry guys...

hmmp klah i better go now hee

tc ppl :D

i did it!!

2008-12-22T00:05:00.006+08:00

heyheyhey

well N level results were out

lol hahahah sry fer nt updating lol

hmm okae well i manage to get into sec 5

yay!! hahah gr8 news huh

lol hmm i score 6 points sey

hahah thats impressive lol

hahah i was amaze myself

heez i didn't noe i cn score quite well

hahah i'm nt being proud uh buden really

i'm juz amaze of my result lol

well my effort really paid off huh

hmm okae i haven't bought my sch books haix

hmm i juz dunno uh wat to buy lol

haha hmm klah i gtg now heee

tc ppl :D

imissmyfriends!!

2008-12-17T04:34:00.007+08:00

heyheyhey

heeez sorry fer the lack of updates okae

heeeez hmm okae lifes been okae fer me..

lol hahah hmm my 'n' level results will b out soon sey

omg!!! hahaa i hope i'll get into sec 5 sey hahaah

heez hmm okae

well i'm kinda awake rite now sey

my eyes like cnnt be shut dwn sey

i've nvr get enough sleep lately

n i'll always been sleeping late haix..

hahah hmm okaeh lah

wen i' free i'll update okae

if my laptop dosen't make any probs

heez i juz miss all my frens...

heeez

okae buhbye.. tc ppl

zoo picx

2008-12-02T03:22:00.003+08:00

hey bloggy!!

heeez well sry fer the lack of updates heeez

hmm wokie my life nw is fine hahah hmmm juz trying to bear wit watever tat happens in life haix.... well nw my relattionship wit my frens at mcd is getting further n further.. she is like trying to avoid me sey.... wat wrong hv i've done haix i didn't do anything to her wat haix.. now wen i talk to her hmm she will like juz ignore me...sumtimes she'll ans buden like 'malas nk layan' gitu haix i juz dunno uh wat to say hmmp i juz feel awkward uh wen all thiz happen to me haix even if i smile to her she'll juz ignore n more over try to get away frm me hmmp i juz dunno uh wat will happen to my life buden by ignoring me hmm does tiz solve any problem? haix.. n for me ..will i lost a fren again?? haix... n why must life be many dwns den ups?? for us to learn n be more mature maybe?? hmm

juz letting all go with the flow haix.. liyana be happy liyana!!! please dun think too much n end up sad n stress!! please liyana c'mon think positive :D

prefect bbQ

2008-11-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

hey bloggy!!

lol wokie its been a long tyme since i touch my laptop sey

hahahah so bored

lol hmm okae

these are some of the pic frm the bbQ the other

day lol ahaha sorry uh 2 oni

heez i didn't get to upload th picx uh haix

hahaha hmm well hd fun taking pictures

lol heeez hmm okae life is fine for me

hmm okae been bz wit werk uh

lol if nt go out hahaha

btw sry guys if i'm nt so free nowadays

sry sry sry

lol hmm

okae i gtg now okae

tc ppl :-D

gdbye

i'm sooo bored :-(

2008-11-10T02:56:00.005+08:00

heyheyhey

hmmp well!!!!

I'M BORED!! :-(

haix i juz can't get myself to sleep sey haix

yea i noe its late hmmp

okae my days waiting to my result

hmm cn call it as my holiday

hahaha well

its kindo boring uh hmmm

but its fun wen theres things

fer me to do hahaha

well my life kinda okae la

hahah hmm

I'M SOOOOOOOO MISSING ALL MY FRENS!!!

haix hahah

finah..nadia..insyirah..nazurah..suriah..afidah..

my schoolmates hmmp

hahaha well sorry guys....

if i'm the one who is always bz n we can't hang out

haix sorry yea...

but i swear!!!!

i really miss u guys like dammn lot sey i juz can't deny tat

hmm okeh skip abt tat

well sometimes i juz don't even understand my own self

why,what,how ? i do every single thing

haix..

what i should even do...

well i'm juz letting things that happen...

happens hahaha

i'm like juz don't even bother anymore

haix..

well i juz feel that sometings bothering me n

i juz dun even noe wat is it haix..

klah i gtg now hehehe

sorry fer nt posting okae...

been bz wit werk..

well i'm planning of quiting but i nd 2 find another

job first haix

is there

any jobs available anyone??

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2008-11-07T02:42:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey

hahah well sorry fer the lack of updates

lol hahah well nth

special happen uh hahah hmm

okae my life?

hmm okae lah its full of ups n dwn rite

hahah so hahah average hee

studies?

well my exams are all over hee

hmm 'N' level

i really hope i cn make it to sec 5 hahah hmm fer my 'O' level

well the mathematics is kinda hard uh buden i think

it is manageble uh

heee hmm okeh well

i juz wanna say

HAPPY BITHDAY!!

to all the november babies.. n yea sorry fer some

as its a belated birthday wish heee

buden u're nt fogetten heee

3rd november -- INSYIRAH!!!!

5th november -- NAZURAH!!!

6th november -- IBRAHIM!!!

7th november -- ZULFADLI!!! <>

well hahah HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEOPLE HEEEEZ

may all ur wishes cum true atite

hahah n ure nt forgetten heeez

remember tat heeez i love u guys heee

psst: i miss all my frens heeez :P

no point of crying fer the things tat hd happen n cnnt be change...:D

2008-10-09T23:45:00.010+08:00

hey bloggy

heez hmm okeh well i kinda give up thinking abt the tragedy

lol well its better fer me to back

hahah hmm okeh well

kinda bored actually

my dad..

hmm he bought another bike fer the tyme being

fer his transport uh heez

fm his fren hmm buden

we still think that the old bike is better uh

but wtd hahah

hmm my mum..

lost the mood fer raye oready haah

to her raya had finish a looong tyme ago

hahah hmm n brother

as fer normal werk werk werk

heeez..

n as fer me hmmp

i think i 'll better get ready fer my O level math ppr

heeez n werk!!!! haha

hmm klah i better get gg now

hee.. buhbye ppl

FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIX!! naseb,naseb ;(

2008-10-07T23:59:00.004+08:00

THIS WAS WAT HAPPEN ON THE

7th OCTOBER 2008

it was a tragedy

nobody knew wat actually happen

it was a normal night

but there like many noises downstairs

ppl shouting n the fire was a big 1

i think i started at the centre or side uh

buden i covers all the areas

haix it happen arnd 2 am

almost everyone was downstairs witnessing the fire

well in my whole life i swear

i never ever experience suc things like thiz before

well this is my first experience uh

well 52 motorcycles were burned in the fire!!

haix well 1 of them is my dad's bike

well i kinda worried uh 4 my dad n the others

hmm hw is he suppose to go fer werk if thiz happen

haix well my dad kinda shock too uh

but wat cn we do haix..

it all happen so fast haix :(

the bike was the most treasurable thing

tat we only hv..

hmmp ;-(

these picx was wat left in the carpark!!

who the hell did it ,i'm sure tat he's sooooo STUPID sey

haix i hope god will punish him fer his sins

haix

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!

2008-10-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE!!!!!

heeez sry fer the lack of updates heez..... i would like to appologize to ever1 heeez

klau liyana ade uat sembarang salah silap harap kamu maaf kn yer heeez halal kn lah makan minum yana dn jikalau yana ini amat menyakitkan hati... saya harap kamu dapat maafkan yer heee maceh moga kamu semue akan berbahgia di bulan yg mulia ini heee

liyana

2008-09-24T14:18:00.000+08:00

'N' level !!

2008-09-22T20:55:00.003+08:00

hey bloggy heee

hmm sry fer nt posting

lol hahah been lazy uh hahah

hmm okeh 'N' level resumes nxt week

argh!! hahaha hmm well today is juz a normal day uh

hmm juz dat i skip skul

hahah today hmm

well i woke late uh actually hahah

den my mum told me nt to go so

i was like okae!!!

hahahah hmm buden quite bored uh staying at hm

hahah hmm klah i think i better go now

woooohoooo!!!

hahaha

8 MORE DAYS TO HARI RAYA!!!!

YAY!!

heeez tc ppl

liyana!! time to buckle up heez lol :P

2008-09-18T23:34:00.004+08:00

hey bloggy!!

heez okeh nth special happen todae lol

hmmm yea 1 thing....

guess wat only 12 pupils turn up fer skool

haahaha omg so pathetic

haah buden its total fun haahaa

wit little ppl in the classroom

hmm i tend to hv the sense of belonging into

the class lol haah thx 4a2 hhaha juz luv u guys heez

hmm wokie guess wat my mathematics o level prelims result r out

haix i failed overall sey juz by another 4 marks

i cn pass but too bad

i did too many careless mistakes sey haish

omgcarelss me hmmp hahah klah i gtg now

buhbye heez i really hv to gt started

on my studies lol hahah

16 days of fasting!!

2008-09-16T19:46:00.005+08:00

heyheyhey... its been a while huh since i've last blog

lol hahah tired uh heez

hmm juz cn't get a tyme to post heez

nth so extra ordinary happen uh heez

hmm well its quite fast seeing time flies ehk

lol without knowing

its already been 16 days of puasa lol

hhhaa hmm well 14 days to raye!!

woohoo lol :D

i've nt been eating much uh hahaha

fer my sahur n fer the break fast

lol i juz dun feel like eating lol heeez

hmm klah i gtg now heez

happy fasting yea heez

tc ppl **misses

why must it all be me?? :(

2008-09-08T00:35:00.004+08:00

heyheyhey hmm wokie

well lets alk abt yesterday..

hmm isn't fasting a challenge fer all the muslims....

hmm its nt fair..

well cn't ppl juz understand tat ppl tends to be

weaker wen they r fasting..

in my case i gues they juz dun understand..

well i didn't wake up fer 'sahur'
tat day n i didn'ate anything the day b4

tat left me wit less energy to werk well..

12pm ..cn't they juuz leave it at 12pm..

n juz let me go off..

keeping their promises?

hmmp well everytime i'll get extend well if i'm nt fasting

its okeh uh wit me i dun care buden

cn't they juz understand...

they do nt even give a little while to rest hmmp..

well n wen i punch out i still didn't get to go hm..

kene nag3 haix..

i dunno uh u cn't put all the responsibility to me rite..

u gt many other crew tat u cn put it on..

buden y me..

y must u put the responsibility on me..

i juz cn't shine well i du think i wanna shine..

hmmdun put high hopes n standards fer me if i juz

cn't get myself to do it

haix..

hmm skip well after tat get a few minutes of rest den went off wit

kak mas heee hmm klah i better go nw..

i'm confuse of myself!!! grrrr:(

2008-09-04T13:37:00.002+08:00

slamat berpuase!!!!!

hey happy fasting to all the muslims around heeez

may all r wish come true n all the best to the

'N' and 'O' levels talers hahah hmm may thiz month be the most

challenging but also a fast month fer us lol hahaha

argh!! 'N' level :)

2008-09-04T13:14:00.004+08:00

hey bloggy heez hmmm wokie hahaha n level startedon the 2nd of september wahahaha which is last tuesday hahaha :D hmm everything went fine uh buden errr i think i did not manage to do well fer my social studies!!! argh!!! shit uh lol hahaha my mind really went blank sey haish.... i've been conting on my social studies uh actually bude after predicting hw i've done.. hmmp i think theres nt much hope uh haish hmmp omg!!! its N level sey nt normal exams haix... hmm okeh errr today was my english papre hmm well it went fine uh lol hahhah buden i nearly late fer sch sey hahaha i was damn2 tired from yesterday hahah hmm n i think i'll get myself a fever if i dun tc of myself well haix... i dunno uh buden i kinda feel sick uh heez aiyo haah klah i gtg now heeez buhbye n to all N level takers........

ALL THE BEST YEA!!

n level argh!!

2008-08-26T22:09:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy!!!

hmm wokie hahah argh!!!

i'm bored hahah no ones at hm sey lol hmm

hmm wokie juz waanna say good luck fer insyirah

n zahirah hahah fer tmr lol

hmm n insyirah plz dun think negatively okeh

hmm juz rmb i'll owaez be dere if u nd me

u cn alwaez tell me okeh..

hmm well sumtimes i may nt be there but pls

in any way i'll try lol hahah

i dunno lah hmm i really hv to improve my english

sey hahah hmm okeh n level is like nxt week argh!!

hahha i hope i'll do well n way more better than my prelims sey

haix.. btw gd luck syirah fer ur prelims heee

smile owaez haha n liyana loves u okeh heee

liyana really hv to buck up on her studies!!

2008-08-22T18:57:00.004+08:00

heyheyhey heeeez hmmm well todae was a fine normal day heeez hmm okeh took my o level mathematics mock exams juz now uh argh!!!! hahahah it was damn hard lar sey heeee hmm well i really didn't manage to do all the questions uh haix n hmm kae i'm nt looking forward fer my thiz result hahah conferm its like a tregedy lol hahah hmm well fer prelims..... hmm i failed oni 3 subjects uh haix... which is geography physic and my POA!!! well actually i failled my english paper 2 uh buden over all i pass uh hmmp lucky sey argh!!! y must exams be so difficult uh haix,... hmmp i really wanna go sec 5 n never will i want to retain argh ahahaha tregedy mann haish hmmm klah i better go now heeez buhbye tc :D

psst! its only abt 12 more days to 'N' LEVEL!!! argh

congratulation!! insyirah n apple!! u make fajar proud!! wooohoooo!! :)

2008-08-21T22:31:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey!!

hmm wokie..

todays the cluster west 6

hahah n guess wat!!!

INSYIRAH N SHAHIRAH!!!!!

gt 1st and 2nd respectively

woooooohooooooo sooooooooooo coooooooollllll!!!

yay!!!

hahah fajar rowks the hall yay!!!

hhahahhhahahahaha

hmmm congratulation fer them both wohoo

heeeezzz!!

yay!!!! :D heeez

hmm wokie hahah gotten my eng results!!

hmm wokie hhaha hmm i pass uh heeez

buden nt so good lol hahah

hmm i failed my geog n poa!!

hehe hmm sry hee

buhbye i gtg

good luck kechik!! u cn do it fer the cluster idol heeee

2008-08-21T00:42:00.007+08:00

heyheyhey welll life gg on fine heeez lol.... juz wanna say good luck fer my dearest KECHIK!!! hahha fer thr heez all the best!! u go gurl heheheh hmm okeh my results were nt fully released lol hahah but well as i saY lol i did fail my poa hahah i got it juz now heeez.. hmm well but its nt toooo bad uh heeez.. hahaha i gt 35.5 over 100 hmm so wat do u think... hmmp lol hahah but its okeh.. i noe n expectesd tat to cum too lol klah i gtg now heee buhbye tc heee insyirah!!! GO!!!GO!!!!GO!!!! (:LET IT BE :)

2008-08-19T22:34:00.006+08:00

heyheyhey hmm okeh today was a normal day uh heez ntg special heez err okeh i've juz gotten my prelims exams uh buden nt all hahah hmm okeh... soo far all i pass uh heeez buden nt with flying colours .. argh!!! hahah my physics summore .. shit mann hahah my ppr 1 i oni pass by 1 mark sey.. haish like sooo pathetic.... lol hahha okeh juz hoping my other subject... r done welll.... but 1 thing tat i noe is........ I'LL SURELY FAIL MY POA!!! argh hahhah thats affirmative lol... hahahha noe y? coz i juz hv no hopes fer poa hahah n the exams were like hahaha argh!! i dun even noe how to do a single thing lol hahahha klah i better go now heeez hmm juz hope life would be as fer normal fer me i mean like sempurna lol :)

shitshitshit :D

2008-08-15T20:04:00.005+08:00

heyheyehey

hmm wokie today was a normal day heeez

err juz traumatise lol

hahah no lah its nth actually

err there were 3 small kids at the playground juz now..

well they kinda irritating uh haix

hmm i dunno uh hahahha

juz fell like killing them sey

hahah they are sooo annoying

lol hahah but dun werry i'm nt evil wokie

heeez so tats it lah hahah

i dunno wat to talk abt lol

the ppr juz now was totally shit uh

lol hahah hmm geog i manage to ans uh

buden i dn think my answer is rite oso haix..

the figure shows wat spit and tombolos

den stupidly i go write err headlands and bays

argh hahah wasted uh heeez

hmm well poa hahah was a totallly crap

well i dun even noe hw to do a single thing uh hmm

wat i do oso seems to b wrong n nt right

hmm so hahah giv up lah ehk

hahah no hopes fer poa hahah

argh poa.. i'm soo dead heee

2008-08-14T19:35:00.004+08:00

heyheyhey heee

hmm wokie todae ppr was okae uh

heeez buden i'm nt so sure to score well uh heee

hmm wokie.. hmm tmr

will be geography n poa ppr 2

lol argh hahah no hopes fer poa uh heee

haha i really dunno anything so..

conferm i'll fail lol :P

hmm klah i better concentrate

on my geography heeeez

klah things hv been better fer me uh nowadays

heeez hahah gd gd hmm klah i better go now hee

buhbye bloggy heez

psst.. sry if i'm acting kinda strange heee :D

2008-08-13T19:15:00.003+08:00

hey bloggy heee

hmm okeh todae was a normal day uh fer me

lol juz tat i tend to give up on my ss lol

hahah hmm well today exams was maths, social studies

and cme

well cme hahah hackcare uh lol

hahah hmm social studies was err quite hard uh

as i had my last minute revision lol

hahah hmm n tat tyme nth was able to b stored in my mind

lol hahah crap lol hmm okeh i gtg now

heez tmr gonna b my sci ppr

haix hmm wish me luck okeh heee

argh!!! ahahah y must exams cum in so fast

lol i'm nt prepared lol hmm

klah buhbye.. :P

exams!!! exams!!

2008-08-12T19:09:00.003+08:00

hey bloggy heee well took my eng ppr juz now

hahha well its not so bad uh hahaha

i kinda run out of ideas uh heeez

hmm but seeing hawa face really change it lah

hahaha she really made my day uh

heeez uat exams pn le ketawe2 ehk

klaka keper hahah

:P hmm okeh well after skul went straight bck hm uh

heeez boring sey lol

hmm tmr will be err maths.. ss.. n cme

hahah

hmm well i didn't prepare a single thing sey

lol i'm gonna be dead argh!! hahaha

hmm klah i better go now

heee gt a lot of studies to do heeez lol

klah buhbye :P

sorry :P

2008-08-11T19:06:00.003+08:00

hey bloggy well okeh..

argh!! n level prelims starts tmr!!

omg hahaah hmm well gd luck everyone heeez

okeh i think i'll be okeh nw heeez...

hmm hope everything will turn out fine

n hmmp hope things will be back as fer normal heez

hmm okeh liyana will smile hahah dun werry lol

haha hmm klah i better go now.. hmmp

buhbye...

hmm sometimes the person we like, dosen't likes us back but anything

happen we'll juz hv to accept it n yea..

i understand everything

but plz do not bcoz of wat happen

change us frm being friends to enemy...

argh!!

2008-08-10T14:24:00.005+08:00

oh shit lol

haha i'm stuck at hm uh haix..

n yea nd to paint my brother's rm

omg haix cn i juz run away hahah

hmmmp alarh i wan run away haix..

nt tat i'm lazy but i dun wanna

get into any trouble or get scolding

fer nth mann omg!! plz hhahaha

klah i better go now b4 i kena smack lol

heeez..

hmmm btw thx syirah fer being dere fer me

lol i really need in heez thx yea..

appreciate it alot heez ily!!

hmm i'm still feeling a little dwn uh

but dun werry!! hahaha :D

bye!! argh!!

psst.. y must all tiz happen to me lol yea lifez is really full of miseriez heeez

2008-08-06T22:02:00.001+08:00

hmm nash!!!!

thx fer the tag...

buden hmm i wonder

who is batman n batgurl...

hmmp wat sey...

btw dun b sad kae hahah :P

2008-08-06T21:16:00.005+08:00

hey bloggy..

hmm okeh nth special happen uh lately

welli kinda been feeling sad uh

well i dunno uh y..

hmmp been feeling low uh nowadays

well i think theres many probs in my mind uh..

buden i dun think i'll show it

hahah i'll still smile okeh

heez hmm well kinda been

lonely uh nowadays

n yea i really hate being on my own..

hmm so i think u'll noe hw tat feel hmmp...

klah i think i better go now...

heeez hmm dun werry okeh

i'll keep putting on a smile okeh...

:P hmmp

why must you go?

2008-08-01T23:22:00.005+08:00

hey bloggy..

hmm well life fer me is as usual..

hmm okeh i dunno lah wat to do..

i'm some kind of paranoid n oso sad

lol dun wanna mention it well..

juz now was my n level malay prelims exams

hmm well its okok lah hahaha

my mind was totally blank at a time

n i really struggle

to get ideas lol hahah funny uh..

hee well my compo was full of shit lah hahah

all do anyhow hahah coz

hv no ideas lol haha

hmm okeh i'm really confuse rite now..

hahah well mix feeling of stress n sad hahah

funny uh haix i think

i won't mention it uh hmm

klah i think i better go now hahah hmm buhbye...

psst... why must the person we love always go? hmmp

hmmp

2008-07-25T22:46:00.005+08:00

hey bloggy

heeez its been a very long tyme since

i've updated my blog uh heez

hmm well my n level oral is all over..

well cn say i did okae lah..

heez hmm life been okae fer me..

thx god its nt changing to worse well

many thing hd happen uh lately

too much to elaborate uh heez

hmm okeh ntg to say uh heez

hmmi better go nw hahh

well exams r cuming really2 soon hmm

i'm gonna be dead mann

heez hmm well i gotta say sry to ika n finah n fida

well i dun think i could do all the survey uh heez sry..

really btw i sooo mish nadia..

heez hope she'll be okae soon heez

tc bye

fajar idol!!!!

2008-07-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy

well..... nth special happen lah

lol hahah hmm juz tat

well normal life..

in life theres many ups n dwns uh

hmm well fer now i'm juz confuse lah haix..

i dunno wat to say lah..

i may seems to be happy but u won't noe

the deeper side of me hmmp well

i really hate being alone...

n well the oni thing tat make me happy is spending tyme wit my frens

n feel belong well to tell the truth..

i'm nt the type who talk much

well i'm trying to change uh but slowly..

well i dunno hw to say lah.. dun scold me if u think i'm noisy

sumtimes really i juz can't control my self

i'll be crazy as i cn be..

n do bear wit me.. heez

hmm but i'm actually quite lonely uh well

n wen silence struck..

all kind of problems may appears bck

well kae3 skip..

hmm well thx to insyirah!!

i was forced to join the fajar idol lah haix..

well actually sum point of tyme i am happy n glad to join uh

buden bcoz i'm tooo scared n like a chicken

i really dun dare to join lah tats y..

i was forced haix but truthfully i really dun dare n scared

well i dun usually sing in front of ppl tat i'm nt close wit

n yea i tend to become really2 shy uh

hmm i juz hope tat everything will go well haha

hmm hope so hahah i'm such

a scady cat lah cn say haix...

well insyirah if nt fer u i won't join okeh..

hmmp :D

wats happening to me? hmmp

2008-07-10T21:38:00.002+08:00

hey bloggy!!!

hmm okeh well nth special happen today uh

well i suddently had a mood change haix..

hmm sry tat sumtimes i've been acting strange lol hahah yea2

sorry2 heeez

hmm okeh well i dun really understand wats happening to me uh

haix i tend to get angry easily.. n forget things

haix hahah hmm wat will happen ehk..

hmm i hope by the tyme my prelims cum i'll be fine

n be okae i hope tat i cn concentrate

more n fully on my studies

oh god! haix heez

hmm klah i better go now..

hmmp buhbye!

heez :P